Shitposting all day on fedi is fun, but I like thinking about stuff more than I think that affords, too. Plus, I just want stuff to put on this website and I think some blog posts to get the creative juices flowing (ew) fits the bill. I moved at the beginning of 2022, and since then I've been feeling... I'm not sure if 'lost' is the right word, but certainly less grounded than I was before my living space changed. It's tempting to use this big change as an excuse to change other things that I feel need changing in my life but I think I'll be better served by taking the time to ground myself in this space and move carefully instead of introducing more change on top of the huge disruption and adjustment I'm already going through. "Move slowly and fix things," right?
Slowing down and refocusing fits pretty closely with the idea of a "depth year", which I was introduced to by beehiveth, whose mention on the fediverse of web self-hosting is also why I'm back to actually editing this site again. After wading through several white women's lifestyle blogs to learn more, the idea of time taken to be deliberately anti-expansive is appealing. This website isn't anything more than a pet project—and I don't want it to be—but that doesn't mean it can't get or doesn't deserve my attention. Dreamwidth didn't work out for me but whacking away at the HTML by hand is fun, gives me more interesting ways to break things, and I think will keep me coming back more often to play with it more. Honestly, the obscurity of a blog here instead of a blogging website is a bit of a plus to me too.
Still, a depth year sounds like kind of a lot. I think I'm going to start with closer to two months and see how I feel about continuing to deliberately avoid new projects. Sometimes new projects are fun and good! But not all the time. I know I'm distractable.
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This will never be implemented.